In C S Lewis’ words, “… the essential vice, the utmost evil, is Pride. Unchastity, anger, greed, drunkenness, and all that, are mere fleabites in comparison: it was through Pride that the devil became the devil: Pride leads to every other vice: it is the complete anti-God state of mind!”. I wrote this poem as a reminder and warning to myself to humble myself before God.
When my head becomes heavy with pride
Lord, break me down and not merely chide !
For, I don’t want Thee to depart from my side
Your Word tells me pride causeth Thy Glory to hide !
O the sin that made the devil, the devil !
That which blinds the heart and enslaves the will !
As I read of Thy terrible wrath poured upon the proud, I tremble,
weep, cry and howl in fear: to swallow ’tis a bitter pill !
Lord, what more can I say or write? I’m shivering
as I pen down these words; a feeling, horrible and haunting
comes o’er me as I think of Hezekiah and Herod, great Kings
and Korah the Levite; O have mercy lest I come to nothing !
Let me truly know and see that I’m but a worm, tiny and little:
Forgive the times when I willfully stood right in the middle;
Oft, with matters High and Holy I did unwittingly fiddle !
Pardon me O Great Master, please help me stay humble !
Riches, fame and success can so easily puff my mind !
Surely You O Lord gave everything; but my heart becomes blind,
thinking that I did it and pride steps in from behind !
O what a wretched man I am ! O Lord, please be kind !
I pray and beg: let not my mind trade Thy greatness for mine
May Thy Beauty and Splendor before me always shine !
Reveal unto me each day more of Thee O Divine !
Gazing upon Thy Face will keep me safe and fine !
Let Thy Truth and Love kindle my imagination,
Thy Mercy and Greatness capture my attention,
Keep me everyday in Thy flawless protection
and guide my poor soul unto Eternal Salvation !